Detoxing is hard...

Over the past almost year, I talked to certain friend nonstop. All day, every day. No matter what. Some might say it was unhealthy. I'd say that you are probably right but they were a crucial part of my life, playing the part as my best friend. Confidant. My gut-check. Voice of reason. My person.

You know the person I'm talking about. You have one of those too.

However, over the past few days I learned that this person wasn't who they said they were. So cutting them out of my life was heartbreaking but necessary. Man it hurts. Day 1 was hard. I struggled with picking up the phone and texting when I got an exciting phone call but I didn't. And I hated the fact I couldn't. I joke that I only had the shakes a few times but it's kind of true. My heart feels like something is missing. Like it hurts to breathe when I think about life without them.

But over the past year, I've learned that I deserve more. I deserve honesty. Truth. Respect. Honor. Love and so much more.

The past few days have been hard but I have learned so much about myself. I'm proud of myself. It hurts like hell but with time, I know that I'll be okay. And I hope you will be too.