I am a girl of many words. Phrases. Sarcastic remarks and comebacks but lately - I got nothing. Which is totally weird because my life is full of…….beautiful, unorganized, crazy chaos. Some welcomed, most not, but it's my life and I'm just trying to live it.
I haven't forgotten about this blog, I just find myself starting a post then saving it because it doesn't feel right.
My life is in utter disarray right now. I'm trying to be the best mom I can be. I'm trying to find my inner voice, which again is odd because I'm usually the loudest at the party. I try to surround myself with good people that have fun but lately, I find myself alone. Sometimes it's because I'm embarrassed about where I am in life but mostly, I've learned those I thought were these great friends are no where to be found during this chapter in my life. It's sad. I often wonder if I've pushed them away because of my insecurities or if they just don't know how to handle divorce, or a newly single but still loud, overbearing and bossy woman? It's fair to say that I've taken a step back, become very quiet and kept to myself a little more than usual because I'm unsure of this new path I've been forced on. Oddly, I've also found that those I never would have thought to step-up when I needed them to have done just that and new friendships have blossomed or re-bloomed.
I promise to be back soon. I have some amazing new fodder for the blog in the way of online dating, dating after divorce or while getting a divorce and some awesome new B & E stories. I've also taken a Facebook break which is strangely refreshing.
I hope everyone is doing well.
Hoosier born and raised. I wear a lot of hats but momma is my favorite, most days....
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